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Ten Years

written by Abby Gilmore 21/05/2018

I was such a young girl the day you were taken. When you left I felt like my entire soul had been shaken.

I changed as a person when I saw the cries. What do you mean I can’t say goodbye?

A great sadness overcame my bubbly personality. Grief became my companion almost like it cast a spell on me.

Signs appeared everywhere to greet me. I’m not lying I’d laugh and think you were so goddamn creepy.

Since then music became my outlet. If I was feeling sad it would explain my entire mindset.

‘Unfaithful’ by Rihanna was the last song we listened to. I took gratitude with a grain of salt, it’s almost like you just knew.

I’ll never forget the week before you passed. Unknowingly it would be the time I saw you last.

It’s like you knew you were going to leave me. As you set your MySpace status to ‘sleepy’.

You felt so big and strong like you would hurt anyone who tried to beat me. I so wish you where still here, for the last few years have definitely defeated me.

One thing I’ve learnt is life does not always go as planned. Our memories though are fun and oh they were grand. (You were so white while I was always fake-tanned)

Things got messy. Life sure did get the best of me!

But I’ve learnt so much in ten years. I sometimes don’t believe the wisdom kept between my own ears.

One things for sure; life does go on and on. You don’t get much of a choice but I chose to be strong.

I got my L’s, then my P’s and life was the bee’s knees. Fast forward ten years now I’m on my knees talking all about Sarah as Milla does wees.

I always thought you’d make a great teacher. Those kids in the classroom would have been blessed to have got to meet ya.

You’ve taught me plenty and I’m wise beyond my years. Because of you I’ve learnt to step into my fears.

I moved away to Melbourne and left everything I knew. I gave everything to something that proved too good to be true.

It seems I got lost in a bad place and some days I wished I got thrown up in space. Unfortunately that’s too hard to do but maybe I could be right next to you.

It was then that I realised that when a person dear dies. Just how beautiful their life is through a set of clear eyes.

I’m almost twenty five and because of you I know how lucky I am to be alive. Your my perspective always making me want to thrive.

Well you’d be pleased to know I’ve met a boy you’d love. I know you know because I can feel you smiling from above.

My kids, oh Sarah you would be smitten. Although Arlo’s not sleeping because her damn teeth are grittin’.

Ten years today you flew into the sky. My biggest pain is I didn’t say goodbye.

I will see you again, I’m just not sure when that will be. What I do know for sure is that I love you Sarah Jane Slattery ❤

Ten Years was last modified: May 21st, 2018 by Abby Gilmore
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